I have,

Battles to brave,
Hurdles to cross,
Challenges to face,
Distances to merge,
Promises to keep,
Goals to achieve,
Wishes to fulfill,
Moments to cherish,

I have a life to live !

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I have this major weakness which I haven't been able to outgrow or suppress despite several attempts. Don't you all dare to laugh at me, if you do, please feel free not to come back ever. Go away to Timbucktoo if you have to !
Alright here goes - I start crying if I see someone crying or in pain. Its like if I see tears, I have to shed a few too. And belonging to the sentimental bunch of the human race (a.k.a women) its not an easy task to be numb with such things. I've held several people when they are busy over-working their tear glands, and it churns out the most resolute emotion within me to hold my integrity in place until they are done. I'm a person who'd get involved and worked-up over little things in life. I cannot be on a platonic plane with anyone. I get way too intrigued and make things a habit which leads to addiction eventually and it makes it almost impossible to come out of that particular routine. The transition especially, when you are used to living one way, and suddenly everything changes within the blink of an eye.

This is one of the harsh realities in life I hate to face, but then now that I've faced it so many times, the only lesson I learnt is that - "All of us have to move on, the sooner, the better !"

Song for the post : Doorie by Atif Aslam

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She gently held the cup of strong coffee with her fingers and sat on the chair beside the window and looked out. A gentle zephyr blew the hair out of fair and she rattled a little feeling the chillness creep down her body. She drew her knees close to her body in response and took a sip of the bitter coffee enjoying its ubiquitous aroma.
She saw kids playing with a stray pup that tried to yelp and wriggle out of the plump boy's fingers, but he seemed to be having a tight grip. She empathized with the pup. She looked beyond, an old couple were holding hands and trying to cross the road. She saw love in their grasp. A smile escaped her lips and a sip of the coffee spread warmth into her system. She gazed leftwards and spotted the vegetable vendor pushing his cart. She saw desperation in his eyes to sell the last of his tomatoes, potatoes, cabbages and capsicums. She saw watchmen with scarves and monkey caps around their heads strutting about the apartments chasing the annoying salesmen away from the gates. Another sip burnt her insides. She saw young lads on bicycles being weighed down by the weight of their backpacks. The sweat of perseverance and tiredness. The cup was empty atlast.
She imagined the vehicles honk and roll past, the birds chirp, the kids screaming in delight, the vegetable vendor's voice, the rhythmic sound of the rustic cycle chains, the quarrel between the watchman and the sales rep and a lot more of the unheard voices in the moribund city life.
Life is so different when you have to imagine the sounds of life and don't possess the hearing perception.

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2006 doesn't really seem to get off my back. I'm still writing '06 in the date column everywhere and am consulting the 2006 calendar still. Seems like the *** Gold Palace forgot to send us a new one this year. Getting back to college after a month has created some ripples in the system, the first being waking up before sunrise ! Its pretty hard to accept the change when you've been nocturnal since your birth.
Blogging took a backseat too this year. Since the beginning of the new year, I've posted just once that too a tag which I took up out of compulsion or call it desperation to post something ! I'm talking as if its September 2007 already !
Confusions.Commotions.Contradictions.Emotions.Evaluations.Explanations.Assumptions.Realizations and so much more shuns out all the abilities and possibilities to think clearly. It definitely is a tough call to make when the heart and the mind start working independently on different lines and refuse to work in coordination.
Distress always follows happiness, but there is always a silver lining in the clouds. Reality sure does bite. Somethings are so hard to accept. Time they say brings about change for the better. Hopes hopes and more hopes are only what I am holding on to, however false and mundane they may seem.

P.s : If this post seems like utter crap to you, please put up with it like the darlings that you have been as always. The damsel is in distress.

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I've been given this tag by WA who doesn't seem to have spared anyone on her blogroll and also by Sandhya who seems to have no other chance but to tag the same ppl all over again !
The tag requires me to disclose 5 things about myself that people don't know. But don't expect me to list down 10 coz I got tagged twice coz listing down 5 itself is going to make this tedious and also coz most of you know me too well but also coz I've got to finish the tag and also coz I've got to put an end to this line which by the way is getting too long :D

1) I jumped onto this tag, coz I love to talk about myself. I'm no narcissist but still, who wouldn't want to talk about themselves ? Oh come on, stop pretending to be all modest, each one of us would have a zillion things to tell about ourselves. It only matters whom you want to broadcast all that to.

2) I've learnt classical music and dance professionally for 8 and 4 years respectively.

3) I'm majorly sentimental & sympathetic over little things.I might sound passive, but then it doesn't take me long to form a puddle around myself.

4) I don't really like chocolates and ice-creams. Not that I hate them, nor am I particularly crazy about them. (OK, eyebrows down and pupils back into your sockets please! )

5) I've been blogging for 2 years and not 1.7 years as most of you think. I run another (dormant) anonymous blog whose url I obviously do not intend to disclose. Questions pertaining to this will be blatantly ignored.

And the nice soul that I possess asks me not to tag anyone and leave it to the reader's discretion whether to take this up or not !

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I'm sure all of you have read everyone posting on how eventful/uneventful 2006 has been for them, and it would be unfair on my part if I don't come up with my ramblings.

2006 saw most of my cousins getting hooked. It was a year I looked forward to the most when it began. Filled completely with activities as it started; the glitter gradually started to fade as the months flipped bringing the series of jolts. The ride wasn't very smooth and it ended with zilch. During the fair end, there was so much gloom that I saw a totally new side to myself. I'm so glad to turn 19 in 2006 ! :D
I definitely have to mention about the people I met and made friends with in '06. These people were one of the few best things that happened to me last year and their existence has definitely changed my perspective of life completely. So if you have known me personally only since '06, give yourselves a pat on the back. I am so glad to know you all.
Well, I've decided to include a few changes here and there, which all of you might find evident from the posts that follow later.

I wish all of you have a year filled with serenity and joy !

P.s Yes, the bold statements continue to thrash you.

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